Today I am 90 days clean, which is great but more difficult for me than 30 or 60 days. I feel like a deserve to party to celebrate my goodness. Not that anyone would show up (I'll blog about my b-day later).
The loneliness is the toughest part for me, I don't get asked out much, my party friends have moved and I now I have to deal with my old social anxiety that i used to medicate with drinks. I am so shy that I don't feel comfortable talking to people when I go out. I still go to bars to kick it but spend my time reading with my diet soda. That pic is me, today, clean for 90 days, looking good. At least my vanity is keeping me clean. I look at my body and realize how healthy and beautiful it is, and how it wouldn't be this way if i was still filling it with chemicals.
