working on my Appeal

I had a great shoot today. I shot with Charlie Black for the first time. I know him as a writer for Appeal Magazine, so it was really fun to work with him in another capacity. Charlie climbed into the glass box and I stood over him and squirted on the glass. He said I gave him a semi, which is hard to do to pro photographers, they are used to looking at naked girls.

After shooting,  I scarfed a burger then went to pick up a content from Monica Mendez, who also works for Appeal. I love shooting with Monica, she is so gorgeous and an amazing photographer. If you like stockings, you will love what Monica and I do together.

Super tired, jerking off all day really wears me out. Got to go take a shower, I'm still covered in squirt.

Burlesque for my Birthday

I went shopping for pastie making supplies today. Why am I making pasties? Because I am going to do something really awesome that I have always wanted to do, Burlesque.

My debut is fast approaching (July 2nd) and the nerves have kicked in, but it was really important for me to do this because when I was a little girl I really, really, really wanted to be a drag queen. I watched "Wigstock," "To Wong Foo," "Priscilla," "Rocky Horror" and "Cabaret" religiously, I read RuPaul's autobiography several times. I was crushed when I realized that there was no future for me in that line of work. And then the burlesque revolution happened, and I now get to live out my fantasies of dressing up in lots of glitter and having an audience to applaud my glamorous self. It's going to be rad.

For those of you in the Los Angeles area,  the show will be on July 2nd, also my 23rd Birthday, at the '3 of Clubs' just north of Santa Monica on Vine, get there around 10pm. No cover.

EroticaLA Wrap Up

I had so much fun at Erotica this weekend. It was interesting to go as a model, people wanted to take pictures with me and get my autograph. Awesome! I was at the PrimeTimeUncensored.com booth. I will be doing a show for them starting July 11th, from 7-9 PST. I'm going to review toys and DVDs and interview all sorts of sexy peeps.

Still working super hard to get the website up and going. I've been shooting like crazy with Ed Fox, Monica Mendez, Geoff Ashley, to name a few. There is this other photographer, Rick Shameless, who I hear is really fun to shoot for and a great lay. Could be a fun way to spend an afternoon, nudge, nudge, wink, wink.

Anyway, back to work. I won't stop until I launch.

Erotica LA

I am so excited to be going to EroticaLA this weekend. It will be great to get out and see everyone. I will be signing Sat/Sun from 12-4pm at the booth.

I went shopping today and got some pretty clothes to wear. I bought an organic dress, it's rad, and good for the enviorment. I also got an awesome haircut at Rudy's Barbershop that totally counts as hot hair. Tomorrow I tan...and I just can't wait for this weekend, I don't get out much.

Going to jerk off now, on my travels today I stopped at Babeland and got some new nipple clamps, yum!

primetimeuncensored.com

Loving Savage

Dan Savage is one of my heroes; his column ‘Savage Love’ is a source of inspiration and comfort to kinky people and their partners since 1991. I found it in The Stranger (TheStranger.com), my favorite of the independent weekly rags. It was the first place I found frank, practical sex and relationship advice for people into all sorts of crazy shit. My eyes were opened and educated about cuckolds, and furries, adults wearing diapers for fun, spanking, pegging and all sorts of diverting and depraved deliciousness. Dan Savage taught me that a relationship with communication could go anywhere sexually. He made it ok to be weird in the bedroom, as a weird kid this gave me a lot of hope for the future. There was also a short-lived radio show, ‘Savage Love Live’, every Sunday night that was on in my early teens. I would stay up late listing to Mr. Savage and Mary Martone, a shop clerk at the famous Toys in Babeland (now just Babeland), dish advice on kinky sex, communication and sex toys. Besides insuring that I would sleep through math class every Monday, this show solidified a passion for radio and sex advice.

As I look back I see how affected I was by Dan Savage and his awesomeness. I worked in a sex shop for nearly two years giving sex advice and slangin’ sex toys. I have devoted my life to the sex industry and now on July 11th at 7pm PST I launch my 3rd sex education radio show on www.PrimetimeUncensored.com . I never would have explored my own kinks, had the confidence to wade into the jungle of the adult industry, and come up a strong confident young women who is asking for a double team for her 23rd Birthday AND can list Adult Film Critic on her resume. All because I grew up in Seattle and smuggled copies of the Stranger home from the library. Thank you Dan Savage, you kinda rule.

Full of the best adverts and perverts The Stranger is in my favorite of the independent weekly rags. Check out the www.thestranger.com for many examples of radness, I’m particularly fond of the ‘Drunk of the Week’ column and the movie reviews, and of course Savage Love.

Jenna loves Rocco

This is a surprisingly small production considering two of the biggest stars in Adult are the stars.

“Jenna loves Rocco” is a low key, low budget, and badly-written-for-porn movie that just happens to feature FUCKING ROCCO AND JENNA JAMESON FUCKING. As a porn fan, Jenna and Rocco getting it on is a huge deal, and a real treat to watch, which is why the lack of production value was so surprising. The supporting cast in this film is stellar and includes: Melissa Hill, Jordan Ice, Anna Malle, Roxanne Hall, and of course, Jenna Jameson. These women are in great physical shape and really like fucking. There is lots of boy on girl oral, three scenes with threesomes, anal, DP, and a young Jenna worshiping Rocco’s cock and taking a huge load in the face.

There are some technical issues; the video quality isn’t great and the chaptering is bad and really jarring. You can’t skip to a sex position or even to the end of the sex scene; you can only move from one dramatic scene to the next, which I found annoying. Technical beef aside, this is a young pre-facial surgery Jenna and the top talent of 1996 having really hot, passionate sex in a mediocre feature.


Ryan Keely

in mourning

I am mourning my sex life. Today I woke up and dressed in black, Carmina Burana is playing at full volume. I have been flopping and sighing deeply. What’s ironic is the murderer of my sex life is my website. The expression of my sexuality is killing my sex life. I have been too busy shooting to get laid, which is working out great for the content because all of my frustration is coming out on camera. I’ve been doing a lot of squirting, some really sexy fetish photos.

My lack of getting any has taken a humbling almost comedic turn; I have taken to brazen crotch staring. I don’t even realize I’m doing it until I get the “Ryan, my eyes are up here” or the really awkward, “Are you staring at my crotch?” The answer is yes. Because instead of listening to you, I am looking at crotch, judging size and shape, factoring in shower/grower variables and becoming very curious about texture and flavor. I had to be forbidden from sleeping with my lawyer, and anyone else I work with by my business partner/roommate. One of said roommates friend made the mistake of falling asleep in my bed and I was forced to rape him. I really couldn’t help myself, when I realized I wasn’t sleeping alone I pressed my ass against this poor young man, pressed his hands on my tits. Not getting the response I wanted I was forced to be aggressive, I kissed him, slid down and took his thick beautiful cock in my mouth. I tongued, sucked and brought him to the brink and forced him to fuck me, I know it was a pity fuck, and at this point, I’ll take what I can get. Keep an eye out for the site, it will be so hot when it launches, I am loving the process of making it.

aching

I am too young for my body to hurt like it does. My shoulders and arms have this dull thudding thing going on. It could be the workout on Friday or the rock climbing, I'm not sure. My lower back is locked up and pinched, I know that is from lap dancing in 6-inch spikes. My knees, my poor knees. I feel like a grandmother with my knees like this. My feet are just fucked. I'm only 22. It seems not that long ago the only pains in my body were from fucking, half my face would be scraped off from kissing boys with scratchy faces, my knees and neck would hurt from giving deliciously long blowjobs or sucking cunt until my jaw would lock up. And my cunt would be chaffed and raw from one finger more then i thought possible and the band at the base of the condom. I need the pain to be pleasurable again, i need it from stimulating pleasure not simulating pleasure.

48 days

Learn to ride horses.
Go to Africa for an extended adventure.
Own a dog
Shoot more guns, particularly .44s
Rock Climb
Learn to surf

I love waking up not hungover, I love that I am not still up cramming narcotics up my nose. I worked at the club last night and my favorite customer came in to see me, he mentioned that he had an ounce of blow at home and that he wished I still partied. I am so glad I don't. I used to want to stay up all night and talk about what great things I was going to do, now I wake up early and actually make steps to accomplish them. Today I am 48 days sober, it doesn't seem like much time but in the month and a half I have made bigger strides to accomplish my dreams then in the last 22 years. That list above was things that I had talked about doing for years, in the last 48 days I have started to accomplish some of them, I rode a horse for the first time, I've been shooting and I have started taking climbing lessons. Everyday I wake up and my body is strong and beautiful and ready to take on the next challenge. I have accomplished more in 48 days, spiritually and physically then I ever did in my almost 23 years. So today I am excited that it is a Saturday morning, and I am not hungover, I am not just going to bed, instead I am waking up to cook breakfast for some of my favorite people and take them on a super long hike. The kinda shit I used to plan and flake on less than two months ago.